Although I wasn't clinically
depressed for several years prior, I became devastated by my
previous horrible marriage & subsequent divorce. I could
hardly work or function, was in constant pain, could not stop
crying or would cry in the middle of conversations with clients.
I was so
desperate, that I resorted to subliminal tapes. They may have
comforted me a bit & helped me through the terrible nights
of weeping. But I was alarmed at how desperate I felt and knew
I was headed for suicide without some kind of help.
I finally went back to the therapist
my former spouse and I went to for marriage counseling. And this
was before the advent of Prozac & Paxil. The therapist gave
me an old antidepressant, Triavil.
Well, it worked
right away and simply put - it saved me. I still hurt badly for
along time. But it helped me tremendously. It took the edge off
and helped me stop crying all day or every time I spoke to anyone.
I could work better and focus better and no longer thought of
suicide.
After a few months, I knew that
I could stop the pills and I would be alright. And I was alright.
I went on to meet my beloved husband of 18 years now, my true
soul mate - we were engaged after a week and married in
6 months with never a moment of regret. |