What I used to think I would do with Suicide.com is quite
different than what I have done, for now.
I consider having Suicide.com a serious and important responsibility.
When I first obtained it,
I wasn't ready and had to take my time to decide what to do
next. I forwarded it to Suicidal.com.
When I was ready, I had to
really dig deep and look for that inspiration I rely on that
is the best gift to my writing.
Added to that, from several
sources, I got the feeling that many or most of the people
who just "type
in" suicide.com on their
web browsers or searches are really not looking
for help from a suicide prevention site.
What they are looking for
is help, encouragement and instructions on how
to commit suicide.
So I thought that I might
have to sort of (lovingly) "trick" them into giving it a little
more thought and at least, one more chance to live...
When they first arrive at the site, I am hoping they will
experience a little surprise and a little scare - like stepping
too close to the edge of a cliff...
Here they are... where they
think they want to be.
Here they are, on the edge
of infinity -
facing the ultimate decision,
facing the ultimate unknown...
and then one last time I
am offering them
not to die.
And ultimately, it is the
hope of a real and true treatment that makes it possible.
what made choosing life possible for me.
My treatment is what
makes choosing to stay alive possible for me every day.